standing bear
boyhood began for me when i killed my first bird below a crowpigeon above me who could only look up into my palm there i looked for him hands hot give me temperance or im climbing out with you did you know i grow by the day eventually i could tear clothes too i took the crowpigeon by the dirt outside to also save i thought handed small bits of bread from my pocket at the fourth bite im curious hands swelled let me just see where this blood can go and i stuffed bread into the crowpigeons mouth so it could eat like me talk like me i squished some more down and thought about adding salt on butter as i looked into his black belly beak at an o at once i pulled locks of My black hair down to hide his and there he was frozen in time
I stand there irritated Luther Standing Bear witnessed religion the day after his passage from baby to bigmore i look for it by next morning on dirt tending to rabbits at my othergrandmother’s house so they could eat like me i pet and spoke to them and sit with them and i consider my age ive heard of the devil from the one color tv im on my dirt with thoughts of the devil on planes by the bathroom rinsing off quickly before im due back and im on my pile of dirt hearing my othergrandmother while i wait for one knob to turn shes sat down on my dirt glad she has two plump rabbits for supper
getim getim dirt in my shoes i sit on my heap here comes my
SomeBrother out of concrete rehashed where is your tenure where is your deed ive little to show my Mothers carried the rebar from past heaps and built pits for us to gather well fed skies blessed never a flood for my good worn heap he says i need to borrow some money borrow shoes borrow this Mitsubishi not yet stolen about to be
if you had just shown the government such and such plight i'll go on with out the dirt through weeds over silver he said he'll outrun me appearing bearin monuments Without deceit in our mouths
if i could bury my grand mother i would i would graze the shore before they have taken away my One and i do not know where they have laid Her if you have carried Her away, tell me where you have laid Her, and I will take Her away before Isaiah calls on Matthew for the child still on Her lap patient and unassigned by wicked men i gather and hew out of fallen rebar and brick along seafoam yes i gather lay it down pat a new entrance without the rolled rock
